Alright, if you had the chance to read the last one, I talked a little about the situation I have created for myself. Well, it’s now been a little over a month and I live out of my car with no job. Though I have been looking, but times are hard. Do I feel defeated, sure at times but on the bright side? I just don’t give it a lot of thought. Here’s what mean, and let’s see if anyone can identify the frustration on work through it in a civilized manner. The biggest thing with my wife for awhile has been me getting another job. I have tried, do I think I looked hard enough. Nope. If I did I would be a dishwasher at Denny’s. However, we leave that for then let’s talk about now. I spent 69.00 I worked in yards to earn. I then spent it on a week long 40hr security course. I passed my two tests with a 98% and 99%. I was happy so happy I had already lined up several interviews and one had already guaranteed a job.

            I take my certificates to the state of Florida building in Tampa and register for my security license. That cost 87.00 I once again worked in yards doing anything. Same day I get back from Tampa I am served a restraining from my wife. Now at this time I had not spoken to her for quite some while. And after reading certain issues within the documents I realized that there were outside influences involved that played to her paranoia.

            Here is the list that followed in frustrations from the above incident.

1. Night before she got the restraining order she brought dinner to my motel room. If she didn’t feel safe why do that?

2. Her siblings who I did talk to out of desperation of having no friends and thinking that they were honest people, turned everything I said around on me. They asked, “well what do you want us to do help you?” I replied simply. “I don’t have any friends, you are the closest that I have and just need somebody to talk to from time to time.”  Mainly this was her sister at the time I was speaking to. She replied. “Of course William we can do that anytime you want.” Wow, I was floored by the later results of this. My fault for trusting them, but at the same time there’s nothing I can do about it.