The nurses also were asking her questions about what to do after, if they want to hold her for a little while, which they suggested is good, it’s kinda like a closure things for parents.  They they wanted to know if they wanted to have some type of service and etc.  To even think of such a thing hurts.  I should of been the one seeing my little Granddaughter grow up, and me the one family is planning a service for in many, many years from now, not this poor little life that was taken away for some unforeseen reason.

I told my daughter, to try and comfort her some, sweetie, maybe God knew that there was a problem, or she was abnormal for some reason or another, and he did not want to put her though it or make her suffer.  So he chose to save you and her both the pain, and take her to be with him now.  And to think positive that she is in heaven with both Great Grandma’s and Great Grandpa’s.

I told her that her beautiful daughter is in heaven now with the angels.  I know deep down, maybe this would or would not help her to understand and get through this.  I have trouble understanding it myself.  But I have to try and believe that God has a special reason for taking this wonderful life before she even had a chance to enjoy it.

I want so much to try and understand why things like this happen, but no one knows why.  They could do a million tests or both her and the baby, and still never find the reason.  The hard part, is that I feel so bad this minute, and it is not even over yet.  She has not delivered Izabella yet, nor have they said their goodbyes yet.  Then we have to deal with a service, and I am so afraid, I won’t be strong enough to help my daughter through this.  But I have to be, I have to…

SO I say:

To my daughter and her husband: 

I feel so bad for your loss.  There are no words that can be spoken to ease you pain right now.  I can only say that I am here for you both, I love you both, and always will.  And as hard as it may seem to you right now, life does go on … Be strong for each other.

To my granddaughter Izabealla: 

God gave you life, and God took it away.  I know he had a reason, and maybe only he may know the answer right now.  But you know you were and are Loved, your in our hearts, and will always have a place there.  We will remember you, and cherish the time you were with us, even if not in this world, but in the world of your mother’s loving surroundings.  You were wanted, loved and cherished by all of your family and friends that you have left behind.  And you will be wanted and cherished by all of your family and friends in the new world God has chosen to give you. 

God bless you, and may you watch over us with curious eyes and a loving heart to help your mother and father get through this tough time.  Be happy, free, and smiling as you enjoy the peacefulness that you were given by God, and when you look down upon your parents, smile … for you may not of been with them as long as they had wished, but you filled their hearts with love and happiness during the time you were.

Goodbye my sweet little Izabella, and God bless you…