I prayed with a lady this week, the first time I have prayed with some one since I was a child. I cried when hearing what this lady asked the Lord. I cried that my struggles to be a successful and strong role model to my family was under threat. I cried because my heart so full of goodness has been torn apart over and over. Yet I seemed to get an answer! Please pray for me!
A Prayer For Me
Here I am, amazed and thankful yet again for one of the horrible, though situation I have found myself in. I am a mother of six children; I had my first child when I was only 14. I am now 35 with five boys and one girl, their ages range from 20 years old down to 1 year old.
I am a very proud mother! My children are well behaved (in public) and have very good morals. I gave birth to my eldest son when I was just 14 and have raised him well without any support from my family at all. In fact I spent my whole pregnancy and first two years of my life; trying to keep them from taking him from me. I worked hard to prove to welfare that I was capable of living on my own and caring for him; and I won!
At 16 I met my husband, I knew he had some mental health issues but by this time in my life I was just happy to find some one who loved me. Despite many heartaches with the tragedy mental health causes; we are still together. But mental illness left untreated leaves behind a trail of heartache and sadness; it also escalates to a point where intervention is not an option but a requirement for every ones safety.
I spent from the age of 19 working my way up through the mental health system. hoping to discreetly find some therapy to help my husband. Only a select few were aware of his Dr. Jekyll Mr. Hyde type moods. On the outside I seemed like the one with anxiety issues. It was him that made me anxious. By the age of 30 I had finished a degree in psychology and become a case worker for mental health. I knew I had to get my husband assessed.
That was now 5 years ago.
Five years ago I left work and gave up buying my house and lost everything I ever had, just to stay at home and hope that I may find some help for my husband. It has been a long road and it got worse before it got better. I work so hard every day to keep positive; to not regret what I have lost, to keep following my code of unconditional love and support no matter what. Just as I thought I was getting over that hill a huge land slide sent me crashing back down
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