Oh..And I have dated a few good men who was good to me., even know they did not have good life’s. Mark Noe  was  very good to me even know he had had a bad childhood, because he just choose to be better then he had and A Steve Hall was very good to me even know his childhood was very bad. His father beat up his mom and all. Both just choose to not be what  grew up in. Both just left me. As I said This story is short. But It says what I want it to say..That bad relationships hurt are Health and God gets us though  a lot ..And every time my ex. husband tried to kill me I said “Jesus  or God help me..And I am still here..!! and sometimes I was alone..Like the time he pulled m,e in the water and I could feel the life drain out of me. I was dying.. I said., ( in my mind ) Jesus help me..And he let me go and stopped being  and looking crazy. It seems God is real and  sometimes we don’t get that life we wanted..But he gets us though all that comes are way….And can make bad into good and use are story to help others..And its  the individuals who have borne the greatest grief and endured the longest abuse who emerge beautiful in character, and strong in spirit, and unflinching in faith. It is usually they whom we all turn to in our moments of despair. For it is they who have withstood the deep waters of suffering to be become lovely in life.  Its like we get polish with robbing compound  ( pain + stress + grief ) that  if we go to the Lord and ask for help and healing we can became a pretty stone..For God don’t guarantee us just the life we want..But he does say “He will never leave us..

It kinda of reminds me of the hidden springs I found in the woods as a child. Every time I went to the woods they seem to change. I always went to them  and prayed and told God what hurt me and maybe it was the waters  or the sound of the water over the rocks..But I usually felt so much better when I left those woods and my hidden springs..When we pray for help from God his spirit is poured into us and helps us though are journey  though life..Some pains and sorrow never go away., Like when my kids was taken from me…That pain and guilt I will carried for the rest of my life..But Gods ever flowing spirit renews and revitalizes  soul and I am able to go on with life and deal with it and all that’s happen. And I think that’s the main Key..God gives us a sound mind no matter what happens in life..And maybe God looks down on us and says..”My child has made some mistakes..I know.., But ..”look what my child is doing now..!! ??? ” Just as we do are own kids..

( copyrighten in 1993 and 2003..So..If any one copy’s this I can prove it..)

my  kid wrote this to me..

My Dearest mother

My mother is very dear to me.,

she has helped me so much.

in the past., you see..

I know we have dealt ..

with our troubles in the past. But..

I love her and shes a  good mom.

And I know my mom will always be their for me..!!

SHES MORE THEN A MOM BUT SHES MY FRIEND.

and I know I’ve sinned my share. and..

I just hope my mother will forgave me.

 with care..for I know and believe in my heart

that God has planned my mother  from the start.!!

For my mother is the closest thing I could come to..

as a real friend..But shes my mom..and I love her so..!!!

by – Heidi Snedeker

shes 35 now and only 16 when she wrote this..

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And we can help others..with are pain..

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“Help thy brother’s boat across and lo !!

Thine own shall reach the shore..”

And I hope that someone reads this that my story can touch..

And know that with God all things are possible..!!