I sit at my desk staring into the old, large mirror in front of me. The reflection of what I think will be the answers to all my problems stares right back at me. Beyond this reflection, through the window behind me, I see the snowflakes gently floating in the sky. Snow can be deceiving. It looks so peaceful when you’re watching it from inside a house. You always wish that you can go out and play in it. But once you’re out in the snow, it’s no longer peaceful, but cold, wet and dangerous.

Sitting in front of me is a sheet of blank paper and a blue pen; I always write in blue. I pick up the pen and begin to write, in trembling writing.

To whoever cares …

If you are reading this, then my plan has worked. I am sorry that I was such a burden on everyone; that I was in the way of everything. I now realize that everyone wishes I wasn’t around.

Your wish has been granted. Since you’re reading this note, I am gone and you will never have to worry about me again.

Sincerely leaving whoever is reading this,

Kate.

I look around my room one last time. This is the last time I’d ever see it. The last time I’d sit on my bed. It’s suddenly a lot softer and cozier. My room is lighter, brighter, and warmer. The last time I look and see the snowy outside world.

I can’t believe that I’m actually going to do this. This is the greatest day of my life. I will finally be able to do what I want, when I want, without anyone yelling at me.

* * *

While walking to the kitchen, a vision comes to me.

You are such an idiot! Why are you always so stupid?

I’m not stupid, Dad. School’s just hard when you don’t have any friends.

Yeah, what happened to them? They probably left you because you’re a stupid slut. You have one boyfriend that you’re always making out with one day, and then the next day you have a different one. Now you don’t have any. And no friends either. First you were a slut, and then you’re a bitch. No wonder you don’t have any friends. I don’t even want you here- you’ve messed up real bad, if your own dad doesn’t want you around.

You can’t say that you’re my dad!