Many people make false assumptions, that introverts are.. what you would consider uptight or depressed. This isn’t the case. Many people judge introverts, and insist that they don’t understand life, that they don’t know how to truly live. I don’t think this is the case either.

For example, let me explain a situation that happened with me and my extroverted father a few days ago. I was having a cup of coffee, just like every morning, and then the phone rang. Well, of course I expected it to be my father. And I swear, it was almost like a reenactment of Cindy Lauper’s ”Girls just wanna have fun”, where the father calls her on the phone and states, ”What are you gonna do with your life?”. Well, he didn’t mean this in the way of making a living, he said that spending my time in the gym is not ”the world”, where I spend most of my week hours at.

Now, I know I must be going insane or something, if the gym isn’t part of the world. I must be going insane if I have to have more than one friend to truly live life.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a hateful person. It’s just, believe it or not, I tolerate things because I am idealist. I realize most realists make life out to be a very cold and harsh place, and if you’re living unhappily, you’re experiencing life. I disagree. Life is what you make it. Just because you consider the world to be a cold, harsh and cruel place, doesn’t mean that’s life. That’s your life, not mine. You can say I’m playing it safe, if you wish, but I disagree. I’m living happily, and I thought that’s all that matters in life. I consider living life to the fullest, by being happy with your life and yourself, not what others consider being happy.

I see no problem with keeping to myself, if my comfort zone is being alone. You should be happy for me, that I can find peace within myself. I may come off as an insecure person, but I am secure in a sense that my father or most people do not, or do not want to understand. I am fine in and out of a relationship. I’m fine with dying alone. I love people, and I do alot to be productive for the world, but because of this, it does not mean I am forced to make connections.

If I die alone, this is not a bad thing. If I die alone, I’ll be dying with the most important person in my life-myself. Think of life as a car, we all attain one when we are of age to start modifying and caring for our own without another’s opinion. We all drive our own car, and hopefully do the best to take care of it. Now, you are behind the wheel of your own, you’re doing the driving. This makes you the most important person in your life, or in this case, the most important person in the car. Now, if you let another person drive your fancy car, if they scratch it or have a little bump-in with an object, at the end of the day, do you think they’d really care? I’m not trying to be harsh, but they have cars of their own that they’re going to go back to, so as soon as they’re not around you, they will put off the front that they actually care about what happened to your car. We are all egoists in this world, it will always be Survival of the Fittest. It is human nature to be selfish, even if we don’t realize it. Sure, we can let other people ride with us in our car, but the logical option is to not allow them to have control of it. This is how I see life. I will not separate myself from people, but I will not allow them to be a weakness for me, either.

And I repeat: If I die alone, I die with the most important person in my life.