The news tried to harass us but friends and family rallied to help and kept them mostly at bay, they still did a false story and stole photos of another site violating copyright laws on photos I own.     We are still in shock.   A week after we lost our sweet Little Man,   We had his celebration of life.    It is so very hard to move on   we see his toys, his teddy bear, his clothes some still coming through the wash and his jackets.   His baby brother misses him terribly they were just learning to play well together.    His four older sisters cry and are sad.   His daddy and mother, my husband and I are just devastated as are my son and his two children  who lived with us frequently and see my daughters children every other weekend, holidays, and six weeks in summer they are more like siblings.    He was the heart of our family, sweet, gentle, kind and rarely ever in trouble.

CPS and the hospital has ruled it a total accident and no negligence or abuse charges will be filed as far as they are concerned, but the police still have my son in laws truck and have yet to release it three weeks later and still insisting some crime or abuse or negligence must have occured.   CPS found my daughter and family to have a large support group and loved by many people and saw the children loved, and well cared for in a safe home.   Moving on past the pain is so hard,  we see reminders in photos, videos,  we miss his laugh his hugs, his helping ways.   He loved big machinery and wanted to be a heavy construction owner and operator some day.   He had a cell phone broken and helicopters and played at his dream.   He loved to sing and he loved watching Dancing with the Stars.  He was always helping and bringing his mom or I fistfuls of golden maned dandelions, wild pansies and roses.   Now he is Dancing with the Stars in heaven but we want him back.  

He loved to be rocked and read to and to have me sing him Amazing Grace his lullaby song for years since he was brought home from the hospital.    We are heart broken and sad.   How can we do all the firsts coming up.,  His 5th birthday October 5th,   his sister Zariah turns 11 on October 4th.   His sister Halona turns 7 on October 14th.  His sister Tamzi turns 13 on Sept. 23.   The interstate  fair is next week and he won’t be there and was so excited about going.     How do we get past all the firsts without him.    We are keeping busy, life goes on, people have to be fed, laundry done,  firewood got in.    But it is hollow and lonely and making chocolate chip cookies makes me cry they were his favorite and I had promised to help make some when he came over that night.   But it never happened.   Instead his went to live with Jesus.      Miss you so much little man so very very much.   Love Nana.    

Rest in Peace in Jesus arms until we meet again.