I found out a month later that he was still married and had been lying to me the whole time. Déjà vu? Not again!! God what is going on here? Why won’t anyone love ME? But God loved me and each of my children were a gift from Him only I was too blind to see it. I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and I decided that I was worth loving. The problem was not me, but others. I got mixed up with the wrong people. I attracted the wrong people. Like attracts like. I was broken, so were they. I turned my life over to God fully and let Him lead me. I began to recover, walking and driving again, getting stronger everyday. I wrote a children’s book about my children. I became involved with my community.

I began to help others that were like me, abused women, young teenage moms. I had real friends and family who care about me. I had a new relationship with my mom. I started my life over and before you know it, I began to truly love myself and became whole. I was healed physically and emotionally. My son was returned to me after his father kept him away all these years! Eventually, I attracted the attention of a man who was also whole. He loves God and truly serves him. No addictions, no control issues and no hidden wives! I became so busy with my life and the kids that I almost missed him. He’d never been able to have kids and his wife died a few years ago. He had been praying for a family and God showed him me! I trusted God this time and took things slow. I was finally ready to love, loving God and myself made the difference in my life. We dated for a year and on Christmas Day, his gift to me was a 5 carat diamond engagement ring! So as I stand at this altar holding the hands of the man I love, truly knowing and understanding God’s love, I can proudly say, “so this is love!”