I loved seeing him and he didn’t even know that he was the top of my list or the only one on my list. Time passed and I’d see him with two different girls. I tried to read their body language to see which one of them was the one he was involved with but I just couldn’t put my finger on it. I really didn’t care. Why should I? I didn’t even know him.I never spoke to him or made it obvious to him that I was interested. Neither did he.We’d pass one another and make eye contact and smile but nothing more than that. It’s not like he’s making an effort to know me, date me. I just came to the conclusion that the one I want to be with doesn’t want to be with me and the ones I don’t want to be with wants to be with me.

I started to follow that saying. ” Like the ones who like you” I decided to give someone else a chance and the night I decided to let him take me out, we ran into Royal. I was highly upset because the last thing I wanted him to see me as was unavailable. I thought that if I had any chance i ruined it by him seeing me out with this guy. I wasn’t the same for the rest of the night. I immediately wanted to go home. I had anattitudefor the rest of the night and the guy I was with didn’t even know the root of my disappointment.

Our paths were starting to connect though. They changed my seat at work and I ended up sitting beside his cousin. His cousin invited me to an event and the only reason I went was because I knew Royal would be there. When I went, the same two females was there and I was shattered. I didn’t know how to approach him and make my interest a little more obvious so he could pick up on the hint and respond. By the time , his cousin introduced us formally, I already put on that cold attitude like he didn’t even exist to me. Little did I know that he noticed and was turned off by my attitude. He started hugging up on the girls and I just left and still confused about his role with them.

God surely does listen to you when you talk to him because after I finally put an end to the one I didn’t want. Not even a month later, I received my first invitation from Royal. I was sitting there at my computer and a pop-up came up on my screen. He was introducing himself and describing himself to me (as if I didn’t know him)and inviting me to meet him at a local club. The only thing I could reply was, “I know exactly who you are.”

We emailed each other with small talk for a couple days until he finally asked me for my phone number. My final reply was “It took you long enough.”

He started texting me and we were conversing smoothly. When he finally called me I was on my toilet wiping my nana. I answered the phone and said nothing. When he said “hello”. The first thing I said to him was ” So this is what you sound like?” and he just started laughing and saying “I like you already.”

My previous experiences with love and relationships, had me questioning my judgement when it came to guys but as I have learned , my gut is never wrong and because of him I am no longer confused about what my vibes tell me. I knew from the beginning that I wanted him and nothing could go wrong but I chose to ignore it. The same way I knew my previous relationships would turn out to be a disaster and  I chose to ignore those feelings too.

There is a voice that speaks to all of us that we need to listen to. It will guide you and it will protect you at all times.