It really amuses me when judgemental perfectionists read what I write. They never seem to understand the message I am expressing.  They are to interested in finding my mis-spelled words or typographical errors to correct. They  can’t help themselves, but to SCRUTINIZE, every lack of punctuation or mis-spelled word that I so carefully tried to do right. I sometimes wonder  if they only read mistakes. If I were to read my articles as a speech, I could have every word in front of me mis-spelled, and they would be lost on how to criticize me. But, I’m sure their ears would be perked up just waiting for a verbal slip up, of a  mis-pronounced word. They are more interested in  reading or hearing something that is incorrect, then to hear the message.

I have been”DYSLEXIC” my entire life. I have struggled DESPERATELY to learn the same way that everyone else does. My brain is wired differently, and I would just like to be accepted for my “talent” once in awhile, instead of always being told how “STUPID” I am because I can’t spell. I have to look up dozens of words every time I write a short article or a poem. It is frustrating and stressful. Sometimes I wish God would had given me the same academic skills as other writers have, or NOT given me the passion to write in the first place.

There must be a reason or a purpose that I torture myself so, and still get nowhere anyway.  Words that sound like “F” and begin in “P” or doubles like: Is it “To, Too, Two”, or is it “bear or bare?”  The words are said the same way, yet have different meanings. Yet, the word “READ” is spelled one way and has different meanings. All this is confusing to my head. Then there is the “sion and tion” words that I can never get right. I always manage to put an “a” where an “e” should go, and and “e” where the “a” should go. At least with computers it really is a god sent that little red lines appear under the mis-spelled words. At least NOW I can be aware that a word is spelled wrong.

I had to put a sheild around myself to not allow english perfectionists to destroy my love of writing. If people like me were to stop writing because we were INTIMIDATED by self-righteous perfectionists all the time, how would they know that we have this problem?  We would also be doomed to read dried out and boring topics of sophistication that float over the heads of us common, average folk who do not know all that high level language in academic jargon.

I will no doubt offend some by saying this, but I feel justified to do so, after spending my life being abused by perfectionists who judge me unmercifully sometimes.  English Perfectionists are liken to maggots who nibble the bones clean of meat, after the animals and birds have feasted and moved on. The maggots have their roll to play, just as all other actors in the play of life. It is their roll in life, so I don’t condemn them for it, I just wish they would have a little compassion and sensitivity toward those of us who have “learning problems,” and do not learn the same way they do.

My only hope is that the meat of my message will fill the hearts of those who read it for the message, and understand what I am trying to get across. If all writers were perfect in their English Skills, we would not need EDITORS to proof read books. Thank you all for allowing me to vent. I know I am speaking for many others who suffer with this condition.