I was reminding myself two things the whole time the whole thirty minutes to keep myself alive until the I get home.

One, Avoid Jiyong Kwon at all times. Whatever I do never interact with Jiyong Kwon, I don’t want to embarrass myself on my last night with him. Knowing myself too well, I tend to sprout nonsense or worst my accident prone might be activated.

So Dara please avoid Jiyong Kwon.

Two, remind myself to Kill Park JaeBum.

God, that has been running through my head for at least the whole time starting at the very second Jiyong Kwon stepped down their van until okay, two minutes ago. He just left me when I pinched his thigh slyly.

If it weren’t because of the huge 2PM design on the side of his head I would have hit his head already.

“I’ll get us some cashew nuts.” He mumbled still nursing his thigh. Okay, I hope he wouldn’t spill it on air or I’m totally in the HOTTEST HIT List.

I watched JaeBum walking away and felt “alone”. Why am I freaking here again?! D.amn! I did thought that Wonder Girls kidnapping me was a good idea, I want to temporarily be swifted away from umma…from the suffocating air that was engulfing between me and my mom. It was getting too drama for me. Too much drama won’t make me a run away winner for Best Actress.

Anyway, though I felt awkward about seeing JaeBum again…I think it’s tolerable than being with Jiyong Kwon. I don’t want to see Jiyong Kwon. Do I have to state the obvious?

Da.mn…

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Okay, who was I kidding? I am a big fat liar.

I regretfully wanted to see Jiyong Kwon for the very last time. Funny that I do want to see him but at the very same time I was literally avoiding him. How ironic, right? I hope I wasn’t being obvious by forcing JaeBum not to leave my  sight at knifepoint.

What the heck was I thinking? DUH?! Can I be possibly so stupid to believe that Jiyong wants to talk to me? DUH?! That he wants to spend his time with me? In my freaking dream, right? I closed my eyes and shook my head. I think I’m crazy to even entertaining that thought, right?