2010

lillyrose on Jan 1, 2010

Tags: fear, giving in, New Year, Old Year, Resolutions, what if

My take on the leaving the old year behind.

The New Year will soon be here and although I promised myself I wouldn’t get sad, I just can’t seem to help it.

Why do I have such a problem letting go of the old year? Maybe it’s because it’s familiar and I already know what happened. Whereas the New Year is still a mystery and more than a little scary.

I never do New Year resolutions but this year I though maybe I would. Change the balance as it were and see if that makes the start of the New Year more bearable.

There are some things I just can’t change in the world, well not on my own at any rate but there are things closer to home that I could do to make a difference. I think it’s time to get into volunteer work again and maybe look down different paths for my life to follow, I need to feel something and stop feeling so broken.

I have an uneasy soul, very restless. It jumps from one idea to another but never really sees anything through, as soon as I start to get good at something I run a mile! Why do I do that?

This year I am going to be stronger, stop being scared and take control, get my life back but what will I do with it when I get it back?

I always chicken out, panic because I can’t deal with things and just decide it’s easier to stick my head in the sand!

We none of us know just how long we have left on this earth and I feel I am just wasting time but then when I think that, the thought of actually changing my pattern of behaviour just seems to difficult and I give in. What happened to the strong young girl with loads of confidence and balls (so to speak) where did she go?

If you can help with any of these questions fantastic but if not it really doesn’t matter.

Wishing you all good health, wealth and happiness for the year 2010. x

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metro7 on Jan 1, 2010
Yea i know how u feel i have been there nothing makes any sense sometimes but i strongly beleive in the saying Change Your Thoughts And Change Your World.its your take glass is half empty or full your take dear wishing u back good health wealth and happiness.lisa tc.
johnnydod on Jan 1, 2010
Well it can only get better, I for one am happy to see the back of 2009 Happy new year…..
Francois Hagnere on Jan 1, 2010
Hope is our best friend in this world! Happy New Year Lilly,
Love,
François
qasimdharamsy on Jan 1, 2010
Nice….thanks….
palak2008 on Jan 1, 2010
Happy New year…
AlmaG on Jan 1, 2010
I agree with metro.. change your thoughts and change your world. That’s really effective. Happy New Year Lily Rose
cutedrishti8 on Jan 1, 2010
Leave behind the negative points and bad things which happened last year..Be positive and move forward with great positive energy this year..Best Wishes for New Year.
Will Dee on Jan 1, 2010
Nice write with a good message. Food for thought.
Valerie Curtiss on Jan 1, 2010
At the age of 68 I have learned a few things, live in the NOW, take care of problems right away, and you then won’t have anything to be scared of, and can enjoy the now moments every day of your life!
Mickey Pig Knuckles on Jan 1, 2010
Lillyrose, I enjoyed this reading and admire you for the wonderful person you are from the inside out. I want you to know that just by having the mind frame of seeking change is the first and most vital step towards success. I have the faith in you that you can accomplish anything you set your mind upon. Happy New Year Girl and oh forget about the balls Girl lol…

Mickey Pig Knuckles
fashion girl on Jan 1, 2010
I only wish for a better health and world peace…
fashion girl on Jan 1, 2010
who am I kidding … I wish a ferrari and manolo blahink shoes
Guy Hogan on Jan 1, 2010
I don’t make resolutions anymore. They never seem to work for me. I make short goals and work on them even if they take me a long time to achieve.

May you have a good 2010.
sss1serviinfo on Jan 2, 2010
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jaysland on Jan 2, 2010
Lilly, Life seems tougher the older I get. You realize your mortality is approaching, more of your friends die. Loving life and living to its fullest means living right now without looking back in time with regrets, or forward with wishes. The right now is all you have. I wish for you a life of purpose, happiness, joy and fulfillment. Use your life to impact others so when you are dead and gone you will live on through the influences you have had on others. Thanks for your positve influence on me!!! ~Jay
deep blue on Jan 2, 2010
Nothing is permanent in the planet but the changes. We may get past well beyond eternity if we knew what we are going through in the present and beyond the lives we couldn’t recall. So time could be measured in years so as to make us remember things a bit easy. Don’t get dismayed my dear, you are merely feeling sorry for all the good things you have experienced and thought about in life you couldn’t recall. The sadness will slowly dissipate as you make up your story and write what you could remember. Don’t pressure yourself, that is the way of life.

Cheers,

Will
T. S. Lewis on Jan 2, 2010
Volunteering sounds like a great way to go. Be blessed whether you have your head in the sand or above it.
Lord Banks on Jan 2, 2010
I must echo what Guy said I dont make new years resolutions, just think of time as one long line dates are irrelevent its how you feel and behave with others that matters. I’m sure 2010 will be great for ya happy new year. LB
clay hurtubise on Jan 2, 2010
I’m thankful things don’t stay the same, that would just be boring!
Grab the bull by horns and go!
Nice piece.
Thanks,
Clay
Anamika S on Jan 3, 2010
Wishing you a wonderful 2010.
fragile18 on Jan 3, 2010
Happy New Year!
Patrick Regoniel on Jan 4, 2010
Wish you the best this New Year!
V rank on Jan 4, 2010
It is normal to feel that way once in a while… Don’t just declare to retreat right away… Hold strong and imagine how devasting your future will be if you surrender now…
STEVE666 on Jan 4, 2010
Some raw and honest self-reproach there, Lisa. Ah, just do it and be damned! After all, in a hundred years time who’ll ever remember we trod this mortal coil anyway.

Jeeze! Now I’m depressed!!
lillyrose on Jan 4, 2010
thanks Steve, you just made me feel a whole lot better! LMAO
Jane Jane on Jan 5, 2010
thanks and I wish you all those good things too specially good health.
oldster on Jan 5, 2010
If you can run a mile you aren’t doing so bad, don’t stick your head in the sand, you’ll end up with shingles. If you can laugh without your belly laughing too, you worry too much.
If you have to, set little goals, make it more difficult to score against you. Try smiling a lot, it may get you put away, but you’ll feel so much better, those little wrinkles will disappear, and the face won’t sag.
Embrace the new year as you would the old man – a tried and trusted friend (hopefully) and know that a problem shared is a big one.
Hope it’s a good one Lilly all the best mate.
Remember there’s a light at the emd of the tunnel and a train coming.
virtualredheart on Jan 5, 2010
this article is very sincere… thanks for let me read it…
magicdarts on Jan 11, 2010
good for you – wish you all the best with the volunteer work – I’m certainly hoping that if I can move towards freelance full time this year I can get chance to get directly involved in some local charities

wishing you all the best health and happiness in 2010!
Leonardo da Vinci E. on Jan 13, 2010
Write down twenty things you would most enjoy doing; And when you get bored revisit them.

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