40, Wow when I was younger that seemed impossible, I mean I thought I would never be that old. Now that I am about to be 40 and I here my kids say the same thing it’s kinda funny. I mean I don’t feel 40 at all. I also have this feeling that I am losing something. I know I’m not but I guess I am worried about not being thirty something any more. It is hard to explain, I mean I feel like I am wiser but I still want to be that young attractive girl that is gone in my mind now. My oldest daughter is twenty three and I look at her and think I want to be that age again, but not really. I mean those were some crazy times and I was young and full of life, now I am in the middle somewhere in my mind. When I hit thirty it was strange to but 40 is truly different. I guess I am being silly but when I see young girls I feel like I have lost that part of me. I know its still in there at heart but I think I was more comfortable at thirty something.I guess when the big day comes I will settle in with it and wear it as best I can.