This is the true story of my journey of struggles and anticipation to becoming a father for the first time.

I have been told over and over by my wife, friends and family that I will be make a great father. I can’t tell you how much that means to me. I truly hope I live up to those expectations. I am ready, that’s for sure.

There is a very active baby in my wife’s tummy. The little one moves constantly and has quite a kick. Just ask my wife. When we are lying in bed or sitting together, if the baby is moving she grabs my hand and puts it on her stomach. I feel it squirming around. But within a few seconds it stops. It’s like I calm it down. I sure hope that is a sign of things to come. But who knows.

Life is filled with excitement, anticipation, uncertainties and lots of unknowns. The unknowns are many, like whether we are having a boy or girl; what color its eyes or hair is going to be; who it will look like; what will its personality be like. We haven’t even agreed on a name yet.

On the other hand, there are things I do know. I know tragedy builds character and can make you stronger. I know things happen for a reason. And the devastating losses we suffered were probably meant to help us be even better parents. I know that even though I thought I was ready before, I am more ready than ever. I may even have a greater appreciation for raising a child.

I know this above all else. To my unborn child, “Daddy is waiting!”

Epilogue

My son Matthew Alexander was born on April 9th, 2007. He came into this world at seven pounds and nineteen inches long. Since the moment the delivery doctor held him high in the air for me to see, he has been the single greatest joy I have ever known. Every struggle, every test, every day of waiting, every loss and every tear were all well worth the wait. I wouldn’t have traded any of it.

This story is dedicated to my wife. If it were not for her unflappable courage and determination, I would not be a father today. And of course to my son Matthew, who on a daily basis brings more joy to us than we have ever known.

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  • Mike Lesniak on Feb 21, 2008

    Wonderful story Pete – God bless you, Wendy and Matthew.

    Mike

  • Christine on Feb 21, 2008

    Are you trying to make us mothers cry? What a great story!! The birth of a child is definately a miracle.

  • Kristen on Feb 24, 2008

    Now why do you have to go and make me cry? Nice, real nice :)
    I’m not reading any more of your articles if they’re tear jerkers…make me laugh like usual and I’m in, otherwise forget it.
    Hi Wendy and MAC

  • Kristen on Feb 24, 2008

    Now why do you have to go and make me cry? Nice, real nice :)
    I’m not reading any more of your articles if they’re tear jerkers…make me laugh like usual and I’m in, otherwise forget it.
    say Hi to Wendy and MAC!

  • Kristen on Feb 24, 2008

    ok so i posted my comment twice

  • lynn high on Aug 12, 2008

    Very moving and emotional. Thank you so much for sharing

  • gabbic1219 on Oct 4, 2008

    very nicely written ,sad but w/ a joyful ending….never for a min. will your loss of the first preg. be forgotten but i am so very happy 4 wendy and you to have the joy of mattew,nice story…i have 4 daughters and they all have been a wonderful joy even up to their bratty yrs…lol but u always love them!

  • Peter Cimino on Oct 5, 2008

    Thanks to all who read this and made comments. I reall appreciate it!

  • Bree Wiley on Oct 6, 2008

    Peter,
    First, I would like to say sorry for you lost. Second, I would like to congradulate you for your son. (I think you may have secretly wanted a son all along, I know Daniel did.) This was written so beautifully. I was crying! I’m so glad God gave you the strength to continue even after your first loss. (If you don’t believe in God, then I’m glad you had enough faith and strength to continue on and not pursue some of the other worser options some people actually pursue.)Say hi to your wife and son for me!!
    Once again, great article! Bree

  • Angel on Oct 7, 2008

    What a wonderful story of love and courage, on both your parts.

  • JK Kristie on Oct 12, 2008

    A great story about love, courage, determination and faith. Thanks for sharing. I wish you and your family all the best.

  • Keya on Oct 13, 2008

    This is an amazing story… My heart goes out to your wife and you. I have yet to give birth to a child of my own but this story only proves what i know the birth of a child is to a mother. Thank you for this story. it brought tears to my eyes and i can’t wait to give birth to a child of my own.

  • Meg AE Kristan on Oct 23, 2008

    Wow, this is really beautiful. It made me cry!
    What a wonderful example you and your wife are of love and determination. Beautiful. :-)

  • Bernadette on Nov 3, 2008

    First, sorry for the loss of your first, second, congrats on bringing another beautiful child into our world. I also commend you on your devotion and strengh to you wife during that difficult time. Thank you for sharing.
    Bless you all

  • leannehume on Nov 4, 2008

    Wow what an amazing story. I know what it is like to lose a baby, really hard going. So sad. my heart goes out to you both. God bless you.

  • eddiego65 on Nov 5, 2008

    Inspiring story! Congratulations to both of you for your beautiful bundle of joy!

  • Kelly on Nov 5, 2008

    Very sweet and endearing

  • Nicole Louise on Nov 9, 2008

    You made me tear up! Not easily done. I love connecting with a peice.Well done, thank you.

  • Debra. on Nov 10, 2008

    My heart goes out to you and Wendy both. That was such a personal story to share. Thank you and God bless you both!

  • jessebay on Nov 29, 2008

    Nine months after you wrote this piece, i and my wife were told she had a missed misscarriage. They just couldn\’t find the baby\’s heartbeat. I tell you, it\’s an experience no one should have. So many questions really.

    Kudos to you, you\’ve captured it brilliantly. I wrote a poem about my experience titled \’Weep\’s Cross\’ on this website.

    Cheers

  • Mary Contrary on Dec 3, 2008

    I am speechless! Simply speechless! Kudos! :) @}-}–

  • ayaBee on Dec 8, 2008

    ohhhh… you made me teary eyed.. thank you for sharing this..

  • Colleen Ranney on Mar 19, 2009

    What a wonderful story/experience. I began reading this a while back but did not finish it so it was great to have some time to read about your journey to fatherhood. Being a parent is JOY!! Beautifully written. You have touched my heart

  • Mrs M on Apr 10, 2009

    Losing a child whether they were physically brought into the world yet or not is tough. This article really brought the tears rolling because I can relate to it in some sense or another. Well done.

  • sam9953 on Apr 13, 2009

    the work is really good

  • ShelliLynn on May 9, 2009

    Aw…how sad & happy at the same time. Matthew is a miracle child. My mom had a miscarriage after my 2 older sisters, and then again after she had me. Your wife and my mom are both very brave. :)

  • Stacey T Pollock on May 13, 2009

    Wow amazing story! You both have so much courage and came through shining. All the best to you both and congratulations on your gorgeous son who is now already 2 years old. Time goes fast!

  • Moses Ingram on May 16, 2009

    Hi Peter, A truly amazing story, I really liked the part about the thumbs up. I know that you are wonderful parents and Matthew, one fortunate little boy.
    Mose

  • JJ Patton on Jun 11, 2009

    Wow. The pages couldn’t load fast enough. I’ve been thinking about children lately and worrying about being a good future father lol This story had such emotion and truth and just… dedication that true parents have. I’m so sorry for the pain that you and your wife had to go through. I can never imagine being on either side, but things in life build and prepare you. I know from reading this story that you’re well aware of that.

    Congratulations on your son and congratulations on finding the courage to press on.

  • Renee Hendricks on Nov 7, 2009

    This is so beautifully written. Your wife and children are so very lucky to have a man such as yourself. I look forward to continuing to read your submitted work!

  • PhoenixRox on Dec 2, 2009

    This was soo beautiful. God bless Matthew, you and your wife :)

  • standingproud on Jan 30, 2010

    A long read but well worth the journey
    I feel for you both.
    Bless
    and strength to you peter.
    love your family photo’s on your home page,just lovely

  • NathanHardman on Jun 7, 2010

    We have a son who was born with heart defects, so I can relate to waiting for test results and hoping for your child to make it into the world with your wife safe and sound. Thanks Peter for sharing your story.

  • CHIPMUNK on Apr 5, 2011

    You amaze me

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