I have never told anyone just how much Monte’s death has affected me.The day august called me and told me I was at my aunt and uncles house for thanksgiving week. he told me what happened and i just couldn’t believe it. august was almost in tears, and i was holding them back myself.

me and Monte were never friends. In fact he made fun of me quite a bit.august says that was just his way of socializing, and that didn’t mean he didn’t like me, but i have my doubts. nevertheless, i tremendously liked Monte as a person. i thought he was smart and extremely funny. you just couldn’t help but enjoy being around him.After I heard about what happened, i became very depressed. no one Ive known and seen most days for the past several years has ever died. i couldn’t eat and i couldn’t sleep. what made me so sad is i never knew where he stood with god.

there were many times when i wanted to just go up to him and ask, “do you believe in god” or “do you believe Jesus is the son god” i never did, and now i severely regret it. now i will probably never know where he stood.

i don’t have any specific point to all this. im not trying to talk about how life is precious and you can die at any moment so live life to its fullest. we have all heard that enough times. ive just been thinking about him lately because it has been almost a year now. its just that time of season i guess.

 …and all this thinking makes me wish i had just talked to him. im not saying there was any specific reason for me to believe he wasn’t a Christan, it just kills me that i don’t know for sure. i cant stand the thought that he wasn’t. i just wish i had asked him one of the many times i had thought about it. now its too late. so if there is a point to all this rambling, its don’t be afraid to share your faith, because you never know who might need to hear it. if God puts someone on your heart, don’t blow it off. at some point in time it will be too late and you will be left to wonder if you made one of the biggest mistakes you could ever make by simply not talking to someone.