At last, after several months I am now in my second semester. It was just seven months ago when i have enrolled on this university and since this university is applying the proposed new curriculum I have been one of those students who luckily pass the first semester.

Now what am I facing is the new challenge. I am taking bachelor’s degree in nursing, that’s why I have two major subjects. the first subject is quite challenging, yet, the other one needs more attention, Anatomy and Physiology. According to our seniors and professor, this subject is really the hardest subject.

Everything went well for the first meeting, no pressure from the professors. But I was wrong with my move on our second meeting, I’m running late and there’s nothing I can do but wait for the traffic. when I arrived, it’s already the 21st item. ouch!!!!!!!!! The quiz is just 30 items and according to the rules, I can’t take or answer the first 20 items.. Ouch again!!!!!!!!

I have recovered with that move but what’s frustrating is when we had our major exam, I’m quite convinced that I did well, but I only got 76%. I can’t do anything but to wait for my prelim grade.

Then it came, the day of giving those grades. As my professors called my name, many things came up on my mind.  The doubt on my ability came up one by one. The questions came on my mind too fast, the what if’s and the but’s are tingling on my mind. As I walk to the aisle, i think I have a nausea, my anvironment is swirling around and as my professors gave my grade, I really wanted to run and hide for I feel inferior to my classmates. I got a passing grade 78.04% but it’s not enough because according to the reuirement of this course, we must have at least 80%. Tears kept falling on my eyes. And until I write this article, I have no choice but to sigh and keep moving on and healing that wound. I just hope that when our midterm grades were released, I wish that i could meet the requirements. Afterall, there’s no one that will be blamed or praised for my deeds but myself.