I feel like I am being blackballed and railroaded it seems like it is not meant for me to succeed I hold on daily and try to keep the faith I guess this is what Tupac meant in his song me against the world.

Can you imagine the shock to my system it would be to get incarcerated  again solely because I cannot find employment is it fair is it even ethical is it even logical.What the world has in store for me what can I do to change my plight will locking me back up for the 16 month suspended sentence I have, even be conducive to help stop crime what laws have I broken in the last 20 months that would deem be being a threat to society the judicial system does not car that we are in a recession and that I am giving this much effort to do the write thing had I broken the law and went back to my old was of dealing would have made it possible to get of probation early provided that I paid them the money owed in fines is this backwards or is it me and I have the wrong thoughts about the situation pleas let me know I sit her in the one stop job service building at the point of discouragement trying to get some type of employment. How do I continue with being a law abiding citizen when the will quickly take me of the streets because I can’t pay the $494.00 I owe do they think they are the only people that I am indebted to this would be absolutely asinine for them to even assume that. Its a battle of morals versus logic break the law to keep my freedom but risking my freedom to keep my freedom how can I win when every option points me to a life of crime that will lead me to a life back behind bars and the very act of refraining will ultimately lead me back behind bars whats a man to do in this situation.