I have been with this man for 19 years and married to him for 14 years with 3 children. I have put up with his ass one time too many. I got a phone call this evening right after my husband left out the house with is friend telling me that some woman got in the car with me. (I was traveling at the speed of light to get there). I parked one car away from his sneaky ass and called his cell phone. I asked him where was he. Not realizing that I am looking right at him he tells me that he is driving downtown because he just dropped his friend off.(I said o.k and waited until I seen the other woman walk up to the car).

I jumped up behind her and ask her what the hell she was doing there. She came up some lame excuse. Then my eyes began to bulge and I said driving downtown right, I’ll show you driving downtown. I opened that truck door and said do you hear this song. (Forgive me God for cursing). (As God as my witness, Mary J.Blige song I’m not going to cry was playing. It had to be a sign for God telling me, is I stay I will be waisting more years with him. I said “You f-cked this marriage up”. I then lost it . I jumped up in the truck and began pounding him down. He couldn’t say anything at first, he just grab me up and said please calm down before someone out here call the police and you lose your job.

I didn’t care about my job at that moment. I calmed down and turn around and the girl was nowhere to be found. I made him come home which I loss it again. I know it’s not right but I just lost it. Thank God that the police didn’t come and I still have a job because I have to pay my mortgage , debts and soon a divorce. I really can’t afford a divorce because when my mother died 2/10/08, I inherit another mortgage payment , and custody of my mentally challenged brother and uncle who lives there.

Since I can’t afford a divorce, I am going to begin blogging for a divorce and raise money for piece of mind. My husband began acting up and being sneaky when my mother was dying in the hospital. He was not there to comfort me. I begged him to stay home, but he would say “I’ll be right back” and never do. After my mom died and we came back home, he went out with his boys.(Ain’t that some bullsh_t). The next time he says that I am going to tell his ugly, ignorant ass , try not to hurry back home. I say this because I don’t want to argue, I don’t want to be around him and Lord knows that I definitely don’t want to be married to him again. Being married to him is emotionally and spiritually draining. He is no longer going to make me feel as if this is partly my fault. Hell, No!

Thank you for hearing my drama. Please pass this email site to every woman who is going through with her man or they just want to blog their way out of a relationship. Blogging can be healing to the soul.