I always had this goal by the time I am 30 years old I would find a good job that I can retired from. I am a fast learner with lots of potentials. I love to work on computers. It is hard to find a good job because of my felony. I admit I did some dumb stuff when I was younger. But for ten years I’ve been staying out of trouble and it’s still hard for me to find that right job. I just turn 31 in Feb. I quit my last job at big lots because I knew I didn’t belong there with all the skills that I have. So I decided to be a stay at home mom for my three children. In August 2008, my sister went to jail and left me custody of all 8 of her children. May I remind you that there are 11 children in my home (ages 1-13). I gave them the best birthday parties and most of all I gave them the best Christmas of their life and it’s been eight months that I’ve been a stay at home mom with all of these children. I gave them the love and attention they never had. My sister decided to straighten out her life and decided that she wants her children back. I don’t feel like it’s the best thing to do, but she is the mother of those children and they are her responsibilities. So therefore I have to do the right thing and let them go. It will break my heart to know that those children will suffer again. Meanwhile, my boyfriend of 13 years who is the father of my two youngest has been so supported and bought us a 4 bedroom house. He is the best. He wants me to be a stay at home mom for our children. But, because we now own a house the bills are getting out of hand. I have to help him with the bills, especially the mortgage. This is the man I want to married and spend the rest of my life with. But, because he is doing everything by himself, I feel like we will never get married. I love him with all my heart. He is a good man to me, our children, and my nieces and nephews. I am not asking for pity, I need a job so I can be supported also, and help him for once. I’m not only doing this for him, I am doing it for my children so they can I have a better life, and most of all I’m doing it for myself to show that I can be independent.