12 years as a heavy drinker, 4 years as a smoker has taken a heavy toll on my health. My lungs burn as if they are on fire. I cough a lot. The coughing greatly disturbs my sleep. Most foods I eat swells my belly. My teeth hurt. I’m fatigued, exhausted. I have asthma, bronchitis, and COPD. I rarely feel good. My husband won’t buy me a stop smoking kit, says he can’t afford it, so I am going to have to give up the smokes and alcohol cold turkey, which is why I started this blog.

Maybe I can blog my way out of these addictions. I am ready for freedom. I want to be healthy again. I know if I don’t give up these addictions I am going to die. Right now my teeth are hurting unbearably. . . difficulty breathing, sleepy, weak. I spend hours on the net each day, cuz I’ve no energy to do anything else. I’ve hit rock bottom. I’m finally ready to start recovery. I hate cigarettes and alcohol, but the cravings overpower me. Its time for me to fight hard for my freedom and retrieve my health, and that’s what I’m going to do, one way or the other.