Dear Diary,

       I woke up this morning around 5am because of the nightmares. All I can see is my mom in the care screaming and the other car hitting her. I tried to help her but I couldn’t, I couldn’t do anything. I tried going back to sleep but couldn’t so I decided to go downstairs. My grandma was there in the kitchen crying, I didn’t know what to do so i snuck back upstairs, so here I am.

      I forgot to look at my room and now that I am I realize it was my mom’s room. I can tell because of the pictures she has from when she was my age. The wallpaper is the same. My mom slept in this same room. She had friends stay over in this room. She grew up in this room. I am trying not to cry yet it isn’t working.

  Why her? Why anybody? I mean I would never want anyone go through this. I mean she was my mom, the person that knew all my secrets. Everything and now she was gone.  Why? She didn’t do anything wrong? I didn’t do anything to deserve to lose my mom. So why?

  I have to go I hear my grandma coming back up.

  LATER: I am back, she just came in to check on me but I fake slept so I wouldn’t have to talk. Does this make me a bad person? 

   Well anyways I need to sleep and plus I don’t know why I am even writing in this stupid book, I mean it is not going to bring her back.

                                           Bye for Ever, Caitlin