Dear Diary,

I am having confliction emotions about my love life. I have a boyfriend, my first real boyfriend in my life but why doesn’t it feel like it’s real? I guess I should explain myself a little better. I met my boyfriend the old fashion way online. Yea I know that’s not really old fashion but when you think about it and the way things are today, it kind of is. It really wasn’t supposed to be a relationship but he pushed and pushed until I gave in. He was all of the things I love, although he was a great deal older than me and another race. I couldn’t resist him because he was funny, smart, had a job, and tall. There is nothing like a tall man that you have to stand on your toes to kiss. He use to come by a few times a week in between breaks just to sit and talk. Never had I ever in my life felt like I mattered so much in someone’s life. About a month or two into our relationship things started to stop. It wasn’t like things slowed down it just stopped.