Existence seems to have this weird determined factor to drive ourselves onwards to some goal we might or might never set or achieve….I don’t know if I want to lead a life that would ensure a decent lifestyle…I want to lead a life where I’m walking the line between living the dream (personal dreams of course not the kind based on material goods or how much I make) and knowing this is how I want to live my life. Stupid to some and nomadic to others—the whole nomadic lifestyle is kind of cool….but that wouldn’t be the way I want to see it from the few simple pleasure being where you consider yourself happy rather than the whole “What I have is what I am” that feels forced to do certain stuff in life. University has this whole required feel about it but somehow it is when it isn’t. Another person in dept thanks to the education system that screams “you need this or you’re fucked!” that gets to me a lot from how it screams you need and want it rather then something like “Experience actually gets a person work”. Everything right now needs a fucking bit of paper that doesn’t help you get it anything except “You might need some experience before we can actually have you on”.

I want to write….I want to make a living from writing….I don’t care if I end up living a basic lifestyle for most of it—Philip K Dick lived in poverty as a writer. That says something about him. It says “He writes for the sake of writing new worlds within the confines of text”. Writing is done because that what the person wants to do with their life.

A homeless person comes in every few days and writes….no one knows who the homeless person is except that the homeless person writes on a computer every Tuesday afternoon and beyond that it lays a mystery as to what that homeless person writes.

I want to be the writer who gets published yet lives a simple life that shouts out “I make less than many people make in a year. Yet I’m doing a job that makes sense for me”. Is it that stupid to prefer a life that doesn’t run on money and work on the idea of just making money from what you love?

Thought of the Day: August 16th:

Look up and you’ll see what it is today.