“Are you ready?”. Rasped Nick- the guy next to me demanding an answer.

“Yes.” I said with quite an amount of fear written in my blue eyes. He gently placed his warm body over mine. At that exact moment my heart pounded so hard it seemed to have echoed in my ears. I felt my belly tighten with fear; suddenly feeling clumsy and nauseated as if my breath would have stopped right then and there.

*****

My cell phone on the bed indicated that it was five minutes before midnight. I woke up awaiting a phone call from this alluring hair-raising guy. I stared at the shadow the red and gold curtain had cast on the bedroom wall. I sat up in bed searching for the phone which had just started vibrating vigorously and illuminated a portion of my body. I held onto the phone made a big sigh then answered…

…”We have to do it tomorrow or else call it out”. The voice over the phone said. I sat staring at the cell phone and wondered if that wasn’t the worst couple of words anyone had ever said to me. I stayed almost for the rest of the night listening to the words repeating in my head.

I remembered the first time he asked for it. It was five months after we started courting I found out he was becoming sexually permissive. I had given him a lot of reasons why we should not and it was then he became angry and started yelling at me,” is it too good for me? tell me the truth.” .Terrified at how he blurted it out I stood there looking at him then tightly gripping my hand and Staring menacingly he left slamming the door behind him. Still terrified at how he handled the situation I said to myself. Oh my god, why on earth did I fell in love with this ignorant guy? I watched him through my window going across the road looking quite upset and disturbed.

That was just the beginning , I had several time gone to my bed contemplating on what I should do. He wants me to commit to sexual activities which is against my religion and my parents wishes. I do adore him but how much can a guy as popular as Nick earn form a innocent girl like me. He says if I really loved him I would show it to him by doing what he wishes of me .I ’ve learnt that that’s what guy’s use to get your ‘stuff ’. Who should I trust? My parents or the guy of my existence?