I am one of the many economy suffers. Thing is I can not go back to what I once was able to do. Reason for my being chosen among my fellow lay off comrades is that I was starting to miss a lot of work due to my health. My back issues started at that place. They witness it first hand to the pain from the spasms that nearly brought me to tears. So I was no good to them. I also was miserable there anyway and I really sucked at the position. I only applied because I got pressured into it and I pretty much lied and said yeah I can do the work. The only reason I lasted a there a year was well I’m a damn good employee even though I might of sucked at the work.

So what do I do now?

I had hopes I was going to take charge of my life. Once again a job had come to an untimely end I did not want to lose another job in a year or sooner so I was going to make sure I fit the job I was going for. Then something happened I got lost and overwhelmed as my health issues increased. I was limited to what I could do yet I still tired anyway and paid dearly for it. So now I’ve come the conclusion that I can not do what I once did.

So what do I do now?

I prayed a lot and was blessed a lot but not without some near misses of coming close to losing near everything. I continue to search still for work and I decided to try and go back to my writing. I am a published author so I have to have some talent. I had dusted off a book I started and been working getting it done and am hoping to submit it to a fitting publisher. Maybe I can be the American version of JK Rowling for I am a down on her luck single mom with pretty much nothing. I think I have now 2 dollars to my name and I got no more income coming in. Unemployment is exhausted, and I am not sure will I get extended?

Depression though ever so threatens as I feel like such an utter failure to the human race and I really want just curling up in a ball and going to sleep than to write.

So what do I do?

I write about it.