Have you felt that even though you are free literally, deep inside you felt you are in bondage with life?

Yes, there are times when I felt that too. If I would be compared to some Jane sitting next to me, they would say I am a lucky gal — I have family and friends who love me, graduated from a good school, landed on a good job, and having a healthy and active body. With all these, I must be saying, “I couldn’t ask for more”, but why is it that deep down I feel empty, bondage to something I cannot seem to comprehend.

Is it because I happen to miss out something or someone in my life’s journey? I do not know too. Right at this moment, I am still in the process of journeying back in time using my mental state of time travel. I am trying to make sense as to why I am feeling this way when there should have been no reason to feel it.

Yes, it is indeed frustrating when you seem to try everything and still come out empty-handed. Yes, I want freedom. Freedom from this unseen bondage and from this incomprehensible feeling. Freedom from the emptiness that seems to suffocate me in no time.

Freedom is what I want, even though it may be elusive as an eel.