I am a sweet giving, loving person that try to put everything in prospective. I have changed my views on things and I wanted to know if I was going to be this famous singer, songwriter and dancer. I’ve waited all the years of my life for this chance. I never got the chance to show my skill. I am not looking for sympathy. I d however want support. I’m not the type of person that lives for others. Sometime not even for myself. I didn’t understand this but sometime I can feel my life taking a turn for the worst. I’ve wanted something better for myself. I never thought or planed for anything else. I have nothing left in me to fight for the future that I’ve dreamed of for so many years. Life has dealt me so many bad hands. From a young age I mad very bad decisions. I didn’t realize my life would come to a stop. Now I’m stuck in limbo. I really have no idea where to turn or what to do. I’m turning to you. My future is very different now. I have applied to so many jobs and with limited education it makes it difficult. I do have some college and am willing to go back and attend.

                      Then I have to think about my life and food, rent and bills. I am fortunate to have the support of some family and my boyfriend’s mother to survive. I was thinking on moving back in with my family. Or even his mother. Yeah thats how bad it’s getting. I would love to know how everyone else is doing. I see homeless people living under the overpass on 79th street and feel very bad when I can’t give anything. The bed of my eyes fill up with water. Almost coming to tears. It’s a strange thing when you wish you have and you want to give. I wondered what life would be like if I did have. Will I still care about them? Will I even come back to the neighborhood? What would it be like for me? I know that I can have many different personalities and many different saying’s. My grandmother always said you need to graduate and finish college…I’m not going to be here forever. I thought that she was. I thought that I was going to always have my grandma. The only thing promised to you is death. You have to set your life up to be something more then what you even expect. Thus the saying life is what you make it. I don’t think so. I think understanding life is how it will go for you. If you find some peace with you then everything will follow suit.