I still don’t know the full effects of this problem and i don’t want to i just want to live free and carefree for the time until my death. I don’t feel much in me i just feel normal with a sense of betrayal and deceit in my life and i just want it to go faster so that i May get out of this world faster, feel like riding a fast bike and having a head one collision against a train somewhere in the Midwest for some reason well i wasn’t a good Hindu so I’ll see you all in the Patta loka.