I saw into the mind of my Oppressor today. They really do not think they have done no wrong. They really think they are the personal savior in my life. It really baffles me angers me, and humbles me that my Oppressor is just about as messed up in the head as I am. This is going to go on till someone yells stop. I want to yell stop but if I do I may shatter my oppressor. They are in disillusion and do not see what they do is harmful. I don’t really care if they ever understand. I think they do though due to something that my oppressor said. So that gives me a hint of they know what they do, but they think it’s to be helpful maybe to me not harmful, for they are just words. We know though words are a powerful weapon and can destroy many lives. How many stories do you hear of people wrongly convicted based on a word. Another example is H.G. Wells War of the Worlds radio broadcast that had millions of Americans thinking we were invaded by aliens. All based on a word. Do not tell me they are just words to grow a thick skin. You can say you have a tough skin but deep down those words that were cruel and harsh slipped inside you and make you the you, you are today. The tough, perhaps bitter, wild, reckless soul that you claim no one can tear you asunder any more by using vulgar language to express it. I can see through it and know that it hurt you to the core and still does. How do I know? I’m just like you.

So is my Oppressor a wise villainous thing or a really misguided soul that needs help as well? Probably both! I get thrown back in my face all the nice things that have been done for me and son. I want to reply back and so?? To be nice is to be nice you are not supposed to keep track of all the nice things you have done and expect retribution for them. If I want to be nice I will because I care not because I’m going to hunt that person down later and say hey remember when I did this for you and now I want you to do this for me. They owe me nothing and I do not want anything.