A hollow pang in my chest, as if being consumed from the inside out. Emptiness pulsing through my heart, leaving a trail of numbness behind.

Suspicion echoing in every corner of my mind, while past memories remind me every second of every day what impairments a man is truly capable of.

I have chosen not to live without you. Therefore I have chosen to accept the act of your infidelity, and all of the unnerving pain that comes with it.

I look at you, and all I feel is love… though all I see are lies, lies, and more lies. I now question the authenticity of what we have…or had. How much of it was true, how much of it was the spell you bewitched me with? Blinding my judgement, and my heart.

Could I ever forgive you? Forgive you for lying, for breaking everything; us, me, my heart, and my piece of mind. You destroyed what took years to build, for a measly moment of pleasure. But I forgot, you’re “sorry”. Sorry…could it ever be enough?

I changed who I was for you. And you repay me only by inflicting more pain, and causing more change. I am now governed by my emotions and consumed by my thoughts. With suspicion rising and my mind racing, I am now held captive by false notions. And my fear is… that in this prison, this cell, that you’ve driven me to, I will rot.