Today was a special day that I didn’t celebrate. It is not that would not care to celebrate it it is just that I can not any longer. I went through it just like any other day, with just the specialness of it in my head secretly. My baby ate her first taste of bananas today, well it was baby food bananas. She really liked them. I was the one who didn’t like them afterwards. She is not use to eating baby food so even the little taste she ate made horrible diapers. I went to my parents today, I love spending time at my parents house. I miss living with them so much. Trust me people you may think you want to leave your parents house but you don’t. Not when you can stay their longer. It is so weird living in a place your not use to, new home, new town, new people. I thought that I would get use to it after a couple of weeks but I haven’t got use to it yet. I miss my bedroom that was all mine, yeah I know that sounds a little childish, but a sudden change from having your own room, to sharing every part of your room with your significant other takes some getting use to. You can not have all your things the way you want them, you have to get rid of most of your things that holds precious memories, and you have less space in your bed! I love my fiance I do, and I know he deserves so much better than what I give him. He treats me so well at times. He is such a great father, he is so good with our baby. To  be only 21, he is shouldering a big responsibility of raising a family, and paying rent and bills. I know I’m hard for him to handle at times but I’m only 17 and so much is changing at one time it is so over whelming at times. I take most of my frustration out on him and that is so wrong of me. I am a great mother, I love my daughter more than can ever be explained. She looks at me everyday with her big shiny eyes. In her eyes I can see that she believes I have all the answers. Her survival depends on me, she thinks I’m perfect. I try to be perfect for her. I never want her to believe she can’t fully rely on me. I will give her everything I can with every last breath in me.