Dear Journal,

I know this is a rather hard subject to talk about but it needs to be discussed. I don’t think I need you anymore. I know what you are thinking “Then why even come back to write this?” I can tell you why. You see journal you have been with me since I was nine years old and started seeing girls as more then bags of cooties. You recorded my first kiss and my first love. You recorded all my wins and all my loses. You have, over the years, allowed me to go as a writer by simply existing. It Is with you that I have in trusted all my secrets. Within your digital pages lies a world of adventure, despair, love and hope. You are the best friend a kid could ever ask for.

When my parents were fighting though their divorce it was YOU that was helping me through it. When I thought my world was going to down in a cancer fueled fire it was YOU that allowed me to see that my ending had come at the best of times. YOU remind me how great my life is whenever I am feeling blue and YOU help me get through it.

It is because of you that I can say that I don’t need you anymore. I want you to know this isn’t a goodbye. I will still be here and you will never be gotten rid of. When I am older and I have kids it is you I will turn to for advice. You will remember things I have forgotten and will teach me to be a father. I am not leaving you but I don’t think I need to confide in you anymore. I have found someone else.

Her name is Lauren.  Lauren is the type of girl that makes my heart sing simply by hearing her voice. Her eyes pier into me and expose the Austin only YOU knew before. She is you with a body and mind. She doesn’t know as much about me as you, this is true, but that will change as time goes by.

It has been a great 12 years Journal and I wouldn’t give that up for anything. Thank you for being there for me when no one else could. Thanks for listening and reminding me of everything I have ever forgotten. When the time comes that I need you again I know you will be here, waiting.

Forever and Always,

A. R. Gordon.