We all have stuff in our past that effects us now but how do we move on. How do we do something positive? It does not really matter what it is. I was married in May and things are good but I find myself mad when I think about what the last ten years have been like. Why should my wife have to pay for my mistakes? I know she loves me no matter what. The fact that the world is so unforgiving is what gets me.

I am not a felon but I have a misdemeanor. Even thou it has been ten years most company’s won’t hire me .the truth is I was young and stupid. My question is will it ever be different? I have a four year degree in computer networking but because of what  happened no one is willing to give me a chance. Back then I was not a man. Now I am trying to be a man but society will not let me. All I want to do is support my wife. I want to make something of myself. The sad thing is I don’t know what to do. The truth is I want an employer to see me right now for who I am for my clean record. The positive side of it is I would not have met my wife if this would not have happened to me. So I battle with myself sometimes.http://www.freedomofwords.com

I don’t agree with people who say what doesn’t kill you can only make you stronger. I just wish I was able to talk to someone about it and not have them want nothing to do with me. I am working on getting it expunged but it is an expensive process.