Well every family has its own problems here are some that I have been through and learned from.

Well to start off every family is different here are some things that have happened to me. I have thought long and hard about how they could of been different. Well lets start when I was young truthfully my mom and dad drank a little bit but they fought little but when they did fight it wasn’t no little raising your voice it was a lot of screaming and yelling and throwing stuff there were times me and my mom would take me and my sisters and leave for a while. Even though we always came home it was hard but they loved each other. What was really hard to get passed was when i was eight i lost my mother to a enlarged heart. She was a great woman I loved her so much. When i lost her i kinda just froze up. It was like my life just stopped for a minute. It was the worst pain in the world. Truthfully sitting in the room with my family hearing that news. I was more mad than anything. Madder than I have ever been i hated the world. I still to this day have feelings of being mad. But I have realised that it was her time and god took all of her pain away. But he also took my mother, me being a major momma’s boy was just devastated. I remember everyone saying just call if you need anything. All i wanted was my mom back. But after all that my dad started drinking a lot more but we aren’t to that yet. The way i really ended up letting a lot of my mad and rage feelings go was well, I found that if you hold that stuff in and let it affect you it affects everyone around you. I got to where I wouldn’t listen. I wanted to fight a lot and just let my rage and bad emotions take me over. It took years to get over the urges but i finally pretty much have. Well after all that for years i lived with my sister’s Shealyn and Amanda, and My Dad Steve. My sister’s were always singing and dancing and trying to look good ha ha. I remember telling on them for everything when i was little. My dad was always working and coming home, drinking, and smoking cigarettes. There would be the occasional fights and if there where they were really really bad. Well it started getting worse and worse so it ended up shealyn moved to live with her real father. And it was me and Amanda. After a lil while Amanda was gone pretty much all the time. So my Dad and I used to take off in his tahoe and drive all around Oklahoma, Kansas, And just wherever we ended up. That stopped when he met Brigette Martin and After like a month she moved in with us. My Dad really fell for her and after a few months asked her to marry him. They were hitched and everything seemed good for a little while my dad stopped drinking and smoking so many cigarettes. While i was getting pretty much anything i wanted spoiled. Well finally that all changed her and my dad started fighting and she became very mean to me. I mean i was grounded for like a month at a time. and right after that another. Finally my dad wised up and divorced her she was ok for a little while but everything changed. After she moved my dad started drinking even more heavely getting and ended up getting his second Dui, he fell asleep driving coming from the bar and wrecked off the side of a road. Well that put us back a bit. I found some really good friends well i thought. I was getting older doing new stuff, well i picked up cigarettes. To this day i smoke its bad for me and im under age but i cant seem to kick the habit i have went from one pack to 4-5 cigarettes a day soon i will be done for good. But another thing i picked up was Cannabis sativa. I was smoking atleast 4 blunts a day. Thats a cigarello stick split and emptied, with cannabis put inside if you dont know. Well now im down to smoking once a week which is way better. I started smoking because i thought it helped me emotionally wise but i’d get really high and then become sober and boom the problem was back. I learned to just take care of my problems at hand and smoke later. Lol. Well the kids i started hanging out with when i hit middle school wore baggy clothes south pole white tee’s beaters ya know the thugs. Well they were the only people to show me love. After my mother passed my family kinda fell apart. Well middle school was cool hangin with the homies, Smoking, and haveing girlfriends. But the thing was i was getting into trouble fighting, skipping and all that, but not just school trouble relationship trouble cheating and playing it was all pretty wrong. Well it all went on at school till my Freshman year. I went like 1 month, when i was there i wasnt there if you know what i mean. I just couldnt keep still i was always bored and thought i had something better to do. But i have realised i was sadly mistake. I was being so stupid and skipping i got dropped. I stayed out of school. The next year i went back and signed a paper said i was gonna do it. I went 3 weeks. Then out of nowhere i dropped out… I feel stupid now. Because i should be a junior and ima freshman and i have to get my stuff together. Especially because last February my son was brought into this world. When i fix my scanner he will be on here. I am not with the woman. But also in febuary i found a girl. A attorneys daughter lol go figure she wanted the bad boy.. But since i have been with her i have changed she gave me a reason to go for my goals to make my money and do something. When my mother died i was left her ring for the woman i loved the woman i wanted to marry. I plan to use that ring sometime and on the right woman . Well i have more to tell but its gonna be a long day for me tomorrow i will be posting a song i wrote though it is explicit so please be over eighteen unless your allowed to hear a little cursing.