Ok, I’ve submitted three entries to Triond, at this point.   Of those three entries, I’ve gotten one comment and two cents.  I was not expecting to get rich writing online, but I guess I expected more than two cents. 

I actually found Triond quite accidentally, while searching for an online journal website.  I’ve kept a hand written journal, off and on, for about twenty four years.  My college English teacher gave us the assignment to keep a journal.  I got so attached to my journal, that when she would take them up to grade them, I’d go back to her, days later, begging to get mine back, so I could write in it over the weekend.  She said I had a talent for writing and encouraged me to keep journaling.  She even suggested that I consider journalism or broadcasting, as my major.  Needless to say, I didn’t change my major, but I have kept journaling. 

Journaling has been my way of expressing all of my feelings.  Going back and reading my entries is often bittersweet.  I wrote about the death of my father and my grandmother.  I wrote through my whole pregnancy of my son, who’s now 12.  Reading those entries still brings me to tears.  Especially reading about the first time I heard his heart beat, and my fear of it being broken someday.

I started on Triond with a sort of journal entry, then wrote about a great book I had read.  My last entry was about the astonishing sound of my son’s changing voice, at twelve years old.  So, maybe it’s my topics that are not generating an audience.  I guess I expected more Mothers to be on Triond that could relate to my life and my writings.  I want people to enjoy what I write.  But I’m thinking maybe my teacher was wrong.  Maybe I just need to journal for me and not share my thoughts with Triond. 

I’m not going to give up yet, though.  I keep thinking someone will either tell me that I stink at writing, or I’ll get encouraged and charge forward.  I do look forward to comments and I thank that one single Trionder that commented on my first entry.  I also enjoy reading all of your entries, so HAPPY WRITING.  We’ll just see where this leads me.