So holiday in Newquay was Best!! Had Kangaroo steak for dinner nearly Everyday!!

Got to start going out more with new friends around here… miss old friends and fella has ‘finally’ given me permission to go out without him… I would do anyway but at the moment, want to have new friends!! And want to be able to go out when I want, not when he thinks I should be saving up for……’?’ He’s obsessed with saving… and when I mention about saving for the wedding, he comes up with other priorities!! Which I don’t see as being more improtant than our wedding day!! He wants to go on hol for his 40th to see his best best mate and I want my dad to give me away before he dies!! Which would be more important!?

When I want to do something, he makes me out to be selfish. When HE wants to do something, I have to go along with it!! Or get grief anyway!!!!!

What a load of SHIT!!! I’ve just accepted that HE doesn’t want my father to give me away, just see his best mate who will STILL be there after my father leaves us!!

4YRS of engagement isn’t long enough for him to be with someone before he wants the wedding!!

Got to get life back on track… miss old life, miss family, friends, nightlife, clubbing n gettin g drunk, not getting hassle about being drunk or being out till 3am!! Soon as I get cash sorted again soo going out more!! Alone!! lol