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You have no idea just how afraid I am about getting pregnant and being pregnant. Not that I don’t want to have a baby, but the thought of giving birth really troubled me all the time. 

I am afraid of all the pain I will have to go through to have a baby. 

I am scared of C-Section. I am not too scared about normal birth, although it sounds scary as well (especially when they cut the vagina to have a bigger opening and sew it after that). 

My point is I don’t like the idea of having my uterus cut open to deliver the baby. Since I am a woman, I was born with a uterus to carry the baby and a vagina to deliver the baby. 

So, why have C-Section when I have the facility to “tool” to give birth the normal way? 

Ok, so not everyone has to go through C-Section. I might not have to go down that road, but what IF I have to endure a C-Section? Will I be able to endure the pain?

We all know that pain killers are NO good. Any form of medication is NO good.

My desire to become a mother sometimes overcome the fear I have, but 99% of the time, I am afraid of pregnancy and giving birth. 

As much as I wanted to have a baby, the fear is way too strong. How can I ease my thought? Everyone is telling me to relax. Those who are carrying a baby told me that pregnancy can be fun.

I really need to get out of this mess (of being afraid to get pregnant and give birth). Otherwise, my life would be really messy and stop me from having a family. 

Right now, I am like worrying when I am not getting my periods but disappointed when I get my periods. What is wrong with me?