ok, so as most of you guys know i am 17. i have nine months till i turn 18 and my mom wants me to do someething with my life but in reality i really dont wanna do anything at this moment i dont even wanna be at school anymore … i call it a constant state of fuck it ..you know im tierd of going to school and feeling like a retard cause most of the stuff they say doesnt click in my head and it pisses me off to be called stupid!

but anyways so my mom goes on and on and on about how im a waste of life and that its all because i want people to feel sorry for me! and its cause she makes me do dishes or put up clothes…..you know wtf does that have to do with school or my life?

but anyways … we kept on fighting and she gets all pissed cause i tell her you know im involved in all kind of school stuff envomental club and student council stuff crochea club….. and she goes on about how i never do anything and im gonna be a bum cause i have no job ect.

yea but i honestly dont know what to do i have no goals at this point i mean ive made it to 17 no kids and not on drugs ive done better than her…. but would you belive she tired to take ceridt for that ….. like i would be a slut without birthcontrol! omg let me tell you i love cock so very much ….. i dont ! cant stand it ….. its very boering and i do belive im lesbian!

but thats another story for a diffrent rant at this point all i wanna do is scream! i cannont belive her at all it makes me so made … yea i could help out in the house more…but eveytime i try its always wrong or half ass done or not to her standered. so why fucking try you know like after awhile her constant bitching just pisse4s me off

but i do belive that is all im going to write for tonight ….

sorry if it seems a little outta place im thinking since this is like my blog i can write what i want !