Today is my first entry. I am hoping this will be a positive and enriching writing experience for both the reader and I. Today I went back the high school that I graduated from exactly a year ago. I went to go and see my little brother and the rest of the junior and senior high choir perform. The event had not changed much. The school feels a little different. Like I don’t belong, like it is preoccupied and would better operate without me. I have to say though; the feeling is very much mutual. After graduating, there was a short time in which I wished I was still there. To be a stupid little student that thought the world was out to get me but had no real worries.

But here I am a year later supposedly progressed in some way or another. I believe I am. I shall supply thee with a few examples. For one I believe life is beautiful in every single aspect. I have come to recognize the good and the bad and have truly come to appreciate both. There is progression in that and in the fact that I now live on my own, completely support myself and filed my taxes and filled out my FAFSA all on my own. There is a downside sometimes though, I still miss my mommy and having someone else tells me to go to sleep and to wake. I miss someone buying and making food for me. I miss the coffee already being made. I miss a lot of things but even more so I admire anyone who has ever lived on their own. It is eye opening. Thus far it has been both a heartwarming and heartbreaking experience for me. It’s only been about four months but I don’t expect to backtrack.

I am a dreamer and an achiever but lately I have been more the dreamer. I lost my job last week but summer is here so I am doing my best to keep my head up. Again though I feel like other look down upon me because I allow myself to have dreams. I am a college freshman and I have already transferred schools twice and I plan another switch for the up and coming fall session. I am fearful of the future at times but it has always been a mix of fear and excitement. I just have hopes that whatever the future holds it will be so bright and full of truth, love, and happiness for everyone. There is progression there.