“For you are not cast off by the Lord forever, though he brings grief,

He will show compassion, so great is His unfailing love.”

Lamentations 3:31-32

Sept. 17th, 2001

I don’t remember hanging up the phone. I was dumbfounded. Shakily I dialed the number of a mutual friend. She confirmed it. “Jim and I have been so worried about you.” She said. “We didn’t know if you knew or not. He’s been seeing her for a couple of weeks now.” My significant other of over 7 years had just moved on to greener pastures. I felt my world tumbling just like the twin towers had only days earlier.

For the last 3 years I’d turned every part of my life over to Christ, except my relationship with Will. I loved him deeply and ironically felt I just couldn’t risk losing him.

I’d spent many an hour in sincere prayer concerning us, praying for things to work out so our relationship would be blessed by God. I poured my heart out to God time after time; Silence. In all other areas of my life God was very active, but concerning Will….nothing. Finally I could go no further. “OK God, have it your way, whatever that is. I lift Will and my relationship up to you to do as you see fit, not how I see fit.” Two weeks later Will admitted he’d met someone else. I gave Will & my relationship to God and what I’d feared the most had just happened. I’d lost Will. God’s answer was clear.

The timing was just as shocking. Just as I finally release it all to God, Will finds someone else, almost to the day. No matter how much it hurt I knew God had said “No”. Somehow, I found comfort in that. When the anger bubbled up, Strength came to control it because I knew this was God’s plan.

God’s there when we need him. He doesn’t promise us a pain free life but He does promise to bless those who trust in him. Just when my world fell apart God blessed me with two rays of sunshine. My Granddaughter was born and a Christian friend named Bud became my anchor through the storm. Now looking back, I can see how God was waiting to shower me with so many blessings. He waited patiently for years till I finally let him.

“Dear Lord, Thank you for never giving up on us.”