I wrote my last journal entry for the month of June this way: “ I have to forget article writing with essaywriters.net and with other websites, because I find them boring and not interesting anymore, I also felt something deep inside had lost forever, I don’t know what it is, maybe enthusiasm and inspiration. It feels like all my dreams and hopes vanished and I need to renew my spirit to be inspired again. He already stopped texting, and treated me like a complete horrible stranger, he thoroughly stripped me out from his horizon and there’s nothing I can do about it, nothing at all. I respected his decision. He will forever be missed though”.

One day, I decided to resolve everything, with the help of my journal, I wrote the things I wanted to do with my life. I decided to take a break from work and stayed in my room whole day, through the process of solitude and journal writing, I discovered that life never closes doors, that my worth as a person did not diminish. I get back again to fiction writing, pouring my energy to the manuscript I neglected four years ago. I borrowed several books from the library and started a vigorous self study in writing and editing. I am currently pouring my energy to the three books I planned to finish early next year.

writing down entries in another notebook.

These may not be the things my heart desired for the moment, but concentrating on my potentials, at least may help forget my disappointments and can look on my self again with dignity. One day, I began writing an entry with “Hello my dear sweet morning”, and “today, I smiled because…”It’s amazing how journal writing helped me overcome distress and depression and revitalized my life. The metaphor of dreams engulfed me again, transported me back to the lush green farm of my childhood years. It was all over again, fresh and hopeful. Then I started writing a different topic on my journal section: REALIZATION AND FORGIVENESS.

Dr. Leo Buscaglia, one of my favorite authors, has a wonderful explanation about dealing with arguments, in his best-selling book entitled “Loving Each Other”, he said: “Don’t be afraid of disagreements and misunderstanding, the only people who don’t argue are people who don’t care or are dead. In fact, don’t have short arguments, make certain they are thoroughly over and done with it, as human beings, we all commit mistakes and arguments, life would be too abnormal if we don’t have it. We constantly react on a certain thing, that’s very normal. If we don’t react then we are robots. Little irritations neglected will grow into destructive monsters. Let go of Pride, it is one of the capital sins and usually create barriers and prevents some relationship to grow”.