You might say, I could have lied to Oliver and his friends by making up stories why Julius and I were there. But how could I when we we’re caught holding hands and anyone could see us would either think or say we’re a newly wed couple.

The day after that embarrassing incident, Oliver called me saying, the wedding is off, and our relationship ended. It was then when I realized how much I love my fiance and what an immoral girlfriend I had been to him. I couldn’t even forgive myself for the embarrassment and pain I have caused Oliver. I know I had lost him for my impulsive adventure with a guy who in my own assessment, had never even cared for me from the start. What made me say so? Julius never even called nor texted me after that. I only learned from his office mates that he will soon be leaving for Australia for his girlfriend who is a nurse, sponsored him a fiancée visa.. Was I hurt to know that? Yes, but not even half as hurt as losing the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am very repentant of what happened. I want to ask for forgiveness from Oliver, but I don’t a have a face to talk to him. And I don’t even know if he can ever forgive me. I don’t know if it’s too much to ask but I want more than forgiveness, I want his love back. I don’t know if there would still be a chance for us to reunite, knowing that it’s not only Oliver who hates me but also his family and friends. Jorge, I don’t know what to do now. I hope I can ease the pain of my bleeding heart.