Life is all about balance. I’m trying to figure myself out. All my life I’ve never been completely satisfied or happy and I’m beginning to think there’s something wrong with me. I change my mind about everything at least 5 times and in the end I’m not sure if that’s what my heart really wants anymore. When I set my heart out on something that’s all I concentrate on until I get it. Lately I’ve just been taking too much shit and not really putting any effort into the things I truly want.

I’m happy but it never seems to stay that way. Sometimes I think I try to hard, but my best just isn’t good enough. I’m letting others’ opinions run my life and that would be why everything in my life right now is the farthest away from what I had imagined it to be. My thoughts aren’t clear anymore. I’m not sure what I want anymore. I’m not sure of anything anymore. I’ve changed a lot this throughout this year, but that doesn’t mean I’m done changing. I’ve realized over half the time I’m not learning from my mistakes, because I don’t even know what I’m doing wrong.