This is going to be long. But It’s straight from my heart to the people mentioned in this note. Feel free to comment. I live for them.

So there are a lot of words in my head, almost like they are on constant repeat. They echo in my head and I can’t stop thinking about it. To a point I actually like it. Mainly just because it keeps my head kinda where it should be. Focusing on the the good things of life and all the things that I hold dear to my heart. But in a crazy way I also hate it; kinda because I tend to dwell on the past and sometimes that really scares me. Because it is almost like I’m obsessive but I’m really not. It’s just coping. So to the people who I constantly talk to and repeat things to, I’m sorry but it should stop soon.

I am far far far from perfect. I hate some things in my life and things that happened in my life. But when you look at the facts you can’t change anything. Absolutely Nothing. And that’s what this is going to be coming from. I can’t change the past. and I don’t know what the future is going to hold so why would I want to change that?

I have given people my heart. I won’t deny that. I have had ups and downs with those people. That’s a fact. Some people remain in my heart. Some people hold a higher place in it than others. But it doesn’t really matter because when you are in MY heart you have everything I am and have and could be. Regardless of who you are and what you have done to me, where you are now in my life, how you feel about me or what you are going to do. You’ll remain in my heart. Because the memories, the feelings, the thoughts are always going to be there. With all that being said its time to get to what I want to say. These are the individual dedications to all of my friends and the people who are most dear and close to me. In no particular order: Maegen Lembeck, Sami Amos, Taylor Penshorn, Adrienne Lettow, Claudia Ricklefs, Kelsi Klett-Weiler, Shelby Ward, Tara Marie Johnston, Sean O’Connell, Alex Riddo, and to everyone else who has ever made an impact in shaping my life thank you.

Maegen Lembeck Alright so where should I start on you? Ha you are a very unique person who made a pretty big impact in my life over the small course we have known each other. Some of the conversations we had are unforgettable and a lot of people will never see them. For instance in the last one you expressed to me that you weren’t going to take crap from people anymore. That you were going to live your life. And I think that is straight amazing. That is how anyone and everyone should really live their life. Its amazing once you see where you once were and where you are going. Strive and shine. Because girl you are one of those people who influences people wherever you go. Whether you notice that or not. Forget what the haters say, take the props people give you and continue on your journey. Thanks for always being there. Through my lighthearted up’s and burdened downs.

Adrienne Lettow How long have we known each other? something like 5 years or so right? It’s amazing how time fly’s. Adrienne you were one of those people that are fortunate enough to have gotten the words I love you from me. And you still hold those words. I haven’t taken them back. You have been there a lot over the course of my life. Even though it seems like we haven’t been talking a lot lately because I haven’t had my phone or anything you are there for me and I know it. If I were to type you a message that I just needed someone to talk to, I know you are one of those people who would actually care and reply back. And I thank you for that. Do you remember that week where we like texted non stop not too long ago? Well, you kept me alive. I know I never told you that. Adrienne I see you doing what you are doing and it amazes me. You have a heart that chases God and I rarely see you down and upset. I know a lot of your friends and none of them ever have anything bad to say about you, nor do I. So keep it up.

Claudia Ricklefs Girl you are a person that I never get bored of talking to. You relate to me pretty well but you just care. Care when others don’t and when you don’t have to. You care for everyone, not just me. You do those camps and retreats for all those people. You partake in events for people. And you genuinely just care. And I think that is amazing. I don’t know how you do it because if I were you i would be so strung out all the time. The world needs more people like you who think at a deeper level, who care for others and who don’t have to talk crap about others to make themselves feel better. God is working through you and I can see it. You have always been one to message me whenever I messaged you. You have been there to talk with me about the joys of life and also the struggles and that is something that matters a lot to me. Whats even weirder than that is that you don’t like get fed up with it and be like “Jay, you whine too much” or whatever. haha. Thank you for being someone I know I can count on.

Sami Amos Where should I start with you girl? hmm… Firstly let me say that you are pretty dang amazing with your photo taking skillz. haha. We haven’t known each other a long time but its been a great time regardless. I like how you don’t seem to care what others think. To me that is one of the best qualities in the world. Because people are going to care throughout your entire life so take the props like they come and don’t give about the rest of them. You are slightly crazy, but totally in the non-crazy wannabe crazy that is crazier than I am so its completely crazy type of crazy. lol. You make life fun and I don’t see you upset that much. Maybe I don’t have my eyes open wide enough but i think you are pretty happy go lucky for the most part. I enjoy the conversations we have held and the words that have been said. Keep up the sweet pictures.

Taylor Penshorn Aright so you are a very important person in my life that I feel like is drifting away. You are one of the few that heard the the three fateful words from me. And let me just say that you still hold a very high place in my heart. I have told you things that no one else has heard from me. I gave you promises that I plan to keep. You are one of the VERY VERY few people that I could tell ANYTHING to. A lot of people i can tell a lot to but you are one of those people that I know I could tell anything to. Without being judged or told to screw off. I think that we really need to talk more like we used to. Not like exactly how we used to talk but just as frequently. You really made some impacts in my life because I stopped doing quite a lot of things. Also you managed to throw a curveball in my life that actually helped me. Thanks. Oh and lastly, thank you for pointing your cousin my way. She is great to talk to and she reminds me a lot of you. So lets move one shall we?

Kelsi Klett-Weiler Wow crazy little girl. Taylor aimed you towards me and since then we clicked. Which is pretty tight actually. We have been talking for quite some time now and there really hasn’t been any shortages with our words. They flow. You are quickly becoming someone that I can trust completely. I like that too. You have been someone that I feel that I can come to and rely on you to get back to me. You are super crazy but in a stylistic and really cool way. Very unique very you. Thanks for listen to me when I go on and on haha.

Sean O’Connell Dude what can I say? We have had some great times over the years. Too bad our parents are one step away from disowning us if we hang out again. You are probably one of my greatest friends dude. You were always there for the most part. You were someone that I could tell anything to and I know that sometimes you laughed or whatever but I know that it wasn’t in a bad way. Remember all those times where we stole alex’s car and drove it in the snow? Or all those times where he was driving and almost killed us in the snow? Man dude we were in the snow a lot. Hey remember that quote? “A good friend will come bail you out of jail. A best friend will be sitting next to you in handcuffs saying man, we screwed up.” haha that was us when those cops came out of nowhere! Anyways bro we gotta chill somehow.

Tara Marie Johnston I don’t know what you have had against me lately but I don’t want to go anywhere. I would rather us not fight and be able to be real and still be deep with each other. We used to tell each other everything and now when we talk it’s just straight hostility. I hate that. It tears me up on the inside because you still hold a very very high place with me. You still are one of those people that I know doesn’t judge and is very real with people and doesn’t care what someone thinks. You are AMAZING. Anyone should hold their head high and deserve to have you. If they don’t then they shouldn’t mean anything to you. Confidence, strength, character, personality, Godly guys is something that really can’t be beat. Remember to point relationships towards God because he should be the focus and naturally he will bring you closer to a significant other. We have said a lot of great things over the course of our relationship. I hope that we continue to remain close and talk. I’m sorry for things that I have said and done that was mean or hurtful or offending. I never should have done anything like that. Thanks for being there at those times where I needed you most. “When I look to the sky” is still our song.

Shelby Ward Shelby, you were one of the greatest people in my life not all too long ago. You have always been there. Even when I wasn’t there. I know that I up and left you. And that was horrible because there are times where I wish I never had done it. Because even that time where we didn’t speak you still came back and allowed me in your life once again. That takes some strength and trust on your part. I won’t break it again. This time I hope to stand strong for you. To be everything you need. You are gorgeous and fun and make me laugh. You don’t deserve to be brought down by your family and school mates. Forget them and do the things that make you the most happy. I love you. “These Words” Continues to be our song.