My heart feels sorrow and it begins to break. The happy memories all fade away. My heart turns to stone as I see you turn away. I stand here acknowledging that it was my entire fault. They were wrong my presence destroys everything. If I was never born, my parents would be happy. If I was never born my friends would never hate me. If I never existed these feelings would not. I wish for peace of mind. I wish for eternal sleep.

As I sit here writing this I can’t help but think of what led me here. It was a joke and I set myself up. Now it’s a pain in my chest and you won’t even say hi. Don’t you understand that I can’t tell you? I’m breaking piece by piece and slowly there is nothing left. I wonder if this the only way you’ll find out. I thought I could live through this pain but that seems like a distant dream.

The others try to understand but all they get is the mask I am. I wonder what you all will do when you face the real me. Not the happy person you know but the sad little girl inside. The little girl who needs a constant not for someone to betray her. I wonder how you will feel if you see how I truly feel about love.

Betrayal. Another thing that is apart of this. Betrayal made me realize that trusting someone else and letting them in ends badly. I won’t let anyone in anymore not even the closest person to me.

You think I brushed you off out of content? Well its not. One day you all will get explanations and I hope you can except them. When will you realize that by avoiding me it makes it worse. The black hole has replaced my heart.