A Letter to Mom

Mom, this letter is written to apologize to you for anything at all I may have done to hurt you. I love you very much and I care for you always. You were there for me and looked after me when I could not house, feed or clothe myself. Mom, I know that your spirit watches over me because I know you are now sitting up there in heaven. Mother, I apologize if I may have said anything to hurt your feelings while you were here because I know now that you lived only for your children. I was always looking at you as a large woman needing more confidence and needed to lose weight. How superficial! I forgot to look at the real mother who sacrificed for her eight children and kept food on the table; even toys under the Christmas tree. I know now that it must have been hard to raise that many kids and try to keep them in school. I am a success now in life because of your sheer dedication to keep your children healthy, fed, well-clothed and educated. You could have easily given anyone of us up as a single Mom but you kept all of us. Although charity donated toys under the Christmas tree, you made sure that there was a tree there to put the toys beneath. Although you were not a great cook, you managed to have that can of carnation milk and your specialty “jelly cake” for your kids. Although you only received one check a month, you budgeted and made that small check last until the other one came in. You are no longer with me but I still feel your presence. I realize that I am a product of an amazing woman. A woman who without the help of a man but the help of God, kept me and the other kids strong. Mother, I apologize to you and I raise my eyes to you and say thank you for everything.

Kinda