Dear Nicole,

You’re right, it has been way to long.  The kids are growing so fast that I don’t have time to keep up with anything.  Sometimes I feel that I am losing my sanity and there is no where to go.  Everything is piling up and even though it gets done, the next time I turn around it is right back there again.  It’s not like I can do something and it will be gone for good, because it comes back!  It always comes back.  The dirty dishes, the clothes, the dust and yes, the bills.  In a perfect world, everything would be paid for at once and there would be no monthly statements.  How great would that be!  But I know, it’s not a perfect world and it seems to be getting worse.

It’s good to know that you are doing better.  I know that getting sick is no bed of roses, and your recovery took a lot longer than you expected.  I guess that bug really got to you.  I just want you to take your time with getting back into the swing of things because to get a relapse isn’t fun.  Especially since your immunity system was compromised.  I realize that I sound like your mother, but I worry about you being over there.  I know you are doing what you feel you need to do to help those people and I commend you, you are my hero.  But I do worry.

George is going through something personal right now.  I’m not sure what it is, he seems to be withdrawing into himself, not wanting to talk about anything.  Even when the kids are around him, he has become more quiet.  It is as if he is afraid.  That’s not like him and I need to keep an eye on him and make sure he feels needed and loved by all of us.  I know he doesn’t talk about things the way we do; you know us, we talk about things until they are in the ground and then we still talk about it.  But I think in his own time he will be able to say what is going on.

Well I need to get going, I hear the stirrings of a little one waking up from a nap.

Much Love,

Cindy