Dear Brian,

          It’s been more than 16 years since we’ve been together. I can’t imagine that we’ve been together for that long without getting rid of each other. It’s amazing isn’t it, how the human psyche intricately works? I guess, there’s nothing we can do. We’re stuck with each other whether you like it or not. Everything you do, I’ll be right beside you, messing it up. Look, don’t be mad at me for being like that. You can’t blame me for being like this; it’s what I am. I’m sure a lot of people have someone, or something, they hate, that they’re stuck with too forever. But what I’m about to say to you isn’t supposed to make you like me or accept me, or something, okay? I just thought that, ever since, all we’ve done is try to tear one others’ pieces of lives off each other and see who gets the most. Because of our misunderstandings that have led us to hate each other, we’ve grown distant and apart, vowing to never lose the battle of who conquers this fragile vessel. Like I said, I’m not asking you to accept me, and truth be told, I don’t think I can do that either. But for once in our life, we found something that we both want to keep and never to lose. No matter how much you despise me and no matter how much I try to ruin your life, I’m sure we can both agree that what we’ve found is something we’d both preserve no matter what.

We found love. We found her.

          I’m sure you’re thinking, “YOU?! LOVE HER? BULLSHIT. YOU’RE THE ONE THAT’S MAKING WHAT MY ‘SHOULD-BE-HAPPY’ LIFE WITH HER STILL MISERABLE. YOU’RE THE  REASON WE FIGHT, WHY I DISAPPOINT HER, WHY I’M SOMETIMES ASHAMED TO TELL HER I LOVE HER.“. but believe me Brian, what we feel, how we love, why we love, and who we love, is perhaps the closest thing, if not, the only thing, I can honestly say we have in common. That’s one part of us that we both will always have. It’s sad, when you always assume the worst from me? Why is it that every time you – we – do something wrong, I’m the one you hold responsible? Look, it’s not all my fault. If only you’d be stronger then maybe you won’t fold just like that.