My fundamental obsession defined – same gender, same love… same sex? Anything more than 1 way is a palpable self-disqualification… No excuses, no exceptions… so where do the exceptions belong? And who discounts the excuses? Maybe to reclassify my state of being will allow me to reclassify my lifestyle to be more conducive with functioning within society’s benchmark. “Gender Challenged”, “Gender Compromised”, “Gender Confused”… all more acceptable labels yet an increasingly poignant thought. If my internal being depicts male, then my fundamental obsession is opposite and I am heterosexual, right? Not quite… Allowing an opposite sex for a, now, male state of being, is still undeniably gay… AND double classification is not an option. So, that only leaves bisexuality, right? Wrong… The 2 loves rule would have to change and it doesn’t. Why can’t my same love foster acts of sexual pleasure and happiness undefined by the sexuality police, yet leave my current, sexual classification in tact?

Simply stated: The love and passion that I feel when I witness pleasure given by an opposite triggers a certain level of guaranteed reciprocity… and performing in the same manner, with the same opposite, in hopes of reproducing or duplicating that same love and passion, for me, has delivered me, reprehensibly, to this moment in time. So, ultimately, the decision is whether to allow society to declassify me on the grounds of “Unquestionable Freakiness” or for me to classify myself without judgment. And, this question still remains… because my cardinal committal of 2 sexes necessitates same love, pseudo same gender with my fundamental obsession, can it void the outward appearing, classification disqualifying, physical act or reduce it to barely identifiable flotsam and jetsam… allowing me to continue in Lesbianism without question?

Signed,

Piscean Moon – Misunderstood