Mia

I am here… 

I will never leave… 

I can even hear you breath

I can feel your heart beat

I can feel you flinch

every breath is another inch

closer to death.

I am praying

I am begging

Please don’t leave me

I want you to stay

Baby girl don’t you go away

I close my eyes 

been sitting here all night

I smoke a cigarette 

you give me those eyes

“Don’t you do that, I need you now”

That Is when my heart, it starts to bleed

that is when I know you are leaving me.

To the bath room to take a pee…

thinking I will not get back in time

my heart soars you are still with me. Oh Thank God,

I wasn’t gone when you died..

The end is near I and I feel the pain

Cannot take your suffering and I feel ashamed

Always said I die for you, 

But here it is your dying for me… No…

I will never be the same. 

Hours later as I say a prayer

It’s not the first one, and not the last

I close my eyes and take a deep breath

I feel you move as I fall asleep

Jump back awake and 

look into your eyes,

one last breath then

your lost to me….